yunshan

2006-11-12T08:26:00.000-08:00

out of boredom, i have moved to:
http://shanflower.livejournal.com

bye blogger.

2006-11-11T20:36:00.000-08:00

updated 11 Nov @ 2.20am.
its one of those nights where i let my moodswing control me.
i refuse to study, refuse to come close to books.
i watch titanic(only to realise i didnt dl the eng version),
i watch a few episodes of friends,
and i still wasnt exactly feeling good.

but me is very bless.
because...
1)i've got a caring boyfriend who called/smsed
to check up on me every now and then,

2)my 2 best friends gave up working to accompany me!
see, because they told me that they're working on the 22nd/23rd.
i got upset and desperate so i gave up trying to surprise them.
and i told them that im going back on the 21st nov.
and they chose me over work!
YAYYY...

3)my cousin and her fetish for baking.
baked choc cupcakes and eating choc makes me (: (: (:
and we got very excited over it and took many many pictures.

a small cupcake for a small girl.
i know i look damn tired but hey, its 2am so gimme a break!
i took one and it tastes heavenly~

now that its no longer a surprise,
i can start counting down.
10 more days to HOME SWEET HOME!

my mood swing is officially gone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK KOH!!
have a blessed birthday! (:

psy paper demoralised me big time.
i've got no mood whatsoever for the rest of the 2 papers.
but cannot cannot.
much as i dislike studying,
i keep telling myself,
"its only 2 more papers and im going home soon!".

yah, im really going home soon.
omg this sem passed so quickly, its scary.
and this time me and my besties will have so much fun...
because their As would be over by then!
WOOOHOOO~

ah pui, im daydreaming again.
back to reality, back to books.

its time to play Micheal Buble's "Home".
=D

2006-11-09T22:24:00.000-08:00

i've got a surprise for my readers out there today.
(blogging like a full time blogger, pui!)

I WOKE UP AT 7AM TO REVISE PSYCHOLOGY.
(sg time would be 4am)

technically, my eyes opened at 620am,
but i forced myself to sleep
and wake up again at 7am.

for those of you who know me well enough,
you should know that shan needs at least 10hours of sleep,
in order to function properly in the day.

and guess what,
MY HUGE SACRIFICE WASN'T WORTH IT AT ALL.

thinking back, i wanna kill myself.

my paper was at 215pm for heaven's sake!
i woke up 6 hours beforehand to study lah!
i walked into the huge ass exam hall with quite abit of confidence.
and walked out completely dashed.
the practice mcqs that our lecturers gave were relatively easy.
the real exam questions were very tough.
on top of that, i know nuts about QM (quantitative methods).
dont ask me why psy has QM!!
*pulls hair*
so i already gave away 10/100 MCQs.
not counting the how many mcqs i dont know how to do.

i.am.so.screwed.

i hope i can pass.
i hope.

on a lighter note,
my sister showed me her secret cute webpage
which has all these cute little icons.
therefore as an attempt to cheer myself up,
im gonna try writing a cute entry.
with all the cute colourful icons! =^.^=

"welcome to my blog, all you pretty and handsome people!
this is my kawaii blog,
i hope you'll have a great time reading!
currently in a shitty mood, (oops, cute people dont use shitty)
im so down :( my psychology paper was bad!

so here are some sunflowers (my fav, btw)
to brighten my day!

other than that,
i can only pray that an angel will have mercy on me
and let me pass my paper."

haha, kidding lah dear.
im not joking around okay!
its really cute! (i mean it.)
anything thats cute & colourful = shan likes (:
thanks dear sistaaa.

2006-11-08T19:13:00.000-08:00

recently, it seems that everyone has either:
1) blog hopped to livejournal
2) closed down their public blog and set up a private one.

i really wonder why.

celest: "dont you think... livejournal is more... classy?"

i actually do think so.
and since everyone's blog hopping, maybe i should too!
and since im at it, why not another private blog?

but there's no reason for me to change because:
1) my blog hasnt attracted any spammers (yet) and
2) my blog is doing really fine.

see, i have my psy paper tomorrow.
but here i am thinking of blog hopping.
before that, i wanted to file my nails.
then eat strawberries/mango/pear.

im doing everything except proper studying.

i.am.so.screwed.

ps: its the mango and strawberries season in melb now!
they are freaking cheap and sweet lah!
not like those in sg :P

2006-11-07T15:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEJIE!!

HAHAHAHAHA!!
i know you'll kill me for this :x
but its my thing to upload birthday boy/girl's ugly pic lah.
heh heh.
anyway, you're deeply missed by meee.
i wonder if its another cookies-and-cream birthday cake this year?
(man i miss that cake!)
thanks for being such a wonderful sister,
and your encouraging emails that never fail to brighten up my days!
have a blessed birthday! (:

and NO,
my sister is not ugly like that horrid picture i just posted!

i hope you had fun in VIVO city today!
loves.

ps: back to writing my second essay. *pui*

2006-11-06T16:39:00.000-08:00

time: 1.14am
mood: =D

people, i finished my first essay!!
im sorry, i do realise how weird this whole entry is.
but i dont care, its MY blog.
HAHA...

time: 9.35pm
mood: (:

happy fact #1: i havent snacked in 3 whole days!
happy fact #2: i've completed half of my first essay!

wish me luck peeps!

time: 11.55am
mood: 0.0

im shocked.
what kind of shit exam questions are these?!?!
now i know why we have 3 days 2 nights to complete it
and why its a take home exam.
if its not an open book/take home exam,
IM SO GONNA FAIL IT.
not saying i might actually pass this though its a take home exam,
but the chances of failing is lesser.
seriously, NO MORE LAW SUBS NEXT SEM!!

Law In Soceity Take Home Exam
Questions:

1. The expression of cultural practices is an important part

of a pluralist society and therefore must be open to the challenge of law reform.

2. Revolution is a form of free speech and must be upheld as a human right.

3. Law reform promises equality through providing the mechanisms to establish

what counts as public and what counts as private in a liberal state.

4. Because law is always founded on an originary violence there can never be equality.

5. Truth is a concept that justifies law's violence.

6. Objectivity is enabled through the violence of law's procedures.

the heart says,

"gosh, can i not start on it till wednesday morning?"

rationale says,

"NO. get your ass on it right now."

i say,

"orh."

2006-11-04T21:46:00.000-08:00

me and celest are V-E-R-Y stressed up.
so stressed up, we decided to take it out on our ang moh neighbours.

a group of rowdy men were making a hell lot of noise,
and i mean LOUD cheers/laughters/screamings.
not just a short period of time,
but for the whole afternoon!
anyway, i imagine them to be the typical muscular racist blokes.
fearing for our lives, we dont dare to go confront lah.

so anyway,
our "SHUT UP"s and "KEEP YOUR VOLUME DOWN"
didnt work for them.

and being very stressed up and irritated,
we called the police.
yup, we did exactly that.
its our first time, btw.
(fyi, the hotline is 000.)

thank god the noise went down after an hour.

but guess what, the police only arrived 2 hours after our call!
seriously, how s l o w are they???
carlton police station is just behind our house for goodness sake!
blardy inefficient.
i dont feel safe in australia anymore.

ang mohs are seriously slow beyond slow.
so slow, they will probably rot.

oops, do i sound pissed?
im not, i'm just being myself.
i detest people who have no sense of time in an emergency.
esp ang mohs.

ps: im usually not as racist as i sound in this entry lah.
i just need a ranting ground okay!

2006-11-03T02:59:00.000-08:00

Happy 1st Month Anniversary Darling! (:

guess what i saw in Myers today!
a huge ass winnie the pooh thats kinda disfigured. LOL!
i know its pretty weird,
a pooh lover insulting pooh :x
but it really IS disfigured!
and after my baby(my pooh's name) gave me rashes,
i didnt dare to hug this! HAHA!

revision's killing me
and i've developed a disorder named hypersomnia.
its a disorder where people sleep a lot more than usual to escape reality.
yah, thats me.
i refuse to face up to the fact that exam's coming,
and that i have no life.

RAWR!

2006-10-31T21:48:00.000-08:00

so let's see...

i am finally on track with my exam timetable,

i screwed up my house internet (again),

i have a boyfriend who doesnt like giving surprises
but is always trying his best just for me,

my boyfriend has also become a lot more self sacrificing
just so i'll feel more secure,

my diet is sooo ineffective it is no longer called a diet,

and im going home in idunnohowmany days!

according to social psychology,
human beings like to weigh out the costs and benefits.
in this situation, i would like to think that currently,
my life has more plus than minuses.
therefore, i conclude that...

imma happy lil' girl! :)

(and maybe a little bored from all the studying)

2006-10-30T03:32:00.000-08:00

P-U-I!
halloween party's cancelled due to exams.
if not we'll probably be shopping for our costumes today,
and trick or treat-ing tomorrow night.
RAWR!
i never get to celebrate halloween
and im not too happy about it :(

currently feeling bloated,
would probably continue feeling this way
until i learn how to control what i put inside my darling mouth.
somebody gimme liposuction along with my breast implants!!

bleah.
exams can really bring down one's mood.

but anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CINDY LI TIAN! (:

2006-10-29T22:32:00.000-08:00

I've got "Mumu"!!

ya ya i know,
im really slow because this trend has died down in sg.
but i'm not exactly a trend follower so i dont give a damn (:

anyway, i havent seen these vampire mumu(s) in sg before!
sooo adorable!
they even have a small plait at the back,
to resemble the cheena vampires.
damn coool...
its weird how i came to aussie
and become even more cheena piang,
when other people become more ang moh pai.
*shrugs*

i've still got one essay to complete,
but it aint that bad since its a group essay.
and my study timetable has become all screwed up due to the essay.
im so many chapters behind its seriously getting on my nerves.

meishan, you know i love you.
and no matter how far i am away from you,
you'll always be my "ah mua" (:
i miss you and hwahwa badly! ):

2006-10-27T13:39:00.000-07:00

*sniffles*
*cough cough*

tell me i totally deserve to be sick
because of the hard core partying.

i've been trying very hard to get well,
therefore causing me to be 2 days behind my study timetable.

after a long night sleep (i woke up at one today),
i think im ready to start some serious studying.

btw, H2B for psychology essay.
considering that i need at least a H2A for honours,
i think im not that far off track, right? (:

goodbye, time to mug!

2006-10-25T14:30:00.000-07:00

24th Oct - Liane's 12midnight birthday surprise at my place.

From Me to Him:

24 and 25th Oct - Lion's Hotel

a very pretty pic of some shot which i didnt drink.

Dianto! flew back from indo to celebrate the oct birthdays.
and presenting to you, the last camwhoring session before exam kicks in...

i absolutely adore my bunch of crazy friends (:

i have a lot of revision to do.
i dont know why im blogging.
i have one more essay to complete.
i dont know why i havent started on it yet.

i do know im pretty screwed.

i barely passed by law essay - 55%.
im sooo not gonna take any law related subjects next sem.

im very tired.

and for once, i will believe that good things do happen to me.
im so hard to please, i know.

2006-10-23T05:27:00.000-07:00

me: "can i take an ugly picture of you, pleaseee?"
him: "NO!"
me: "but i dont have any ugly pictures of you..."
him: "aiya, you got pictures of me and my streaks what. ugly enough."

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY, NG ZI TAI!!

my study buddy, my confidante, best friend and now my boyfriend,

you are the one who would pick me up everytime i fall,
and make sure that i return to my superwoman mode.

you're probably the only one who can be 20/24 in my list,
and maybe even 22/24 if you want to.

and when i thought that my knight in shining armour was lost,
you proved me wrong.

you came and brought along everything nice in my life.

thanks for making my day everyday.

because this sentence can only be said once
and i want the whole world to know that...
"i love you".

"you two are made for each other lah" - josh.
you know what tai?
i couldnt agree more.

2006-10-21T22:21:00.000-07:00

Asad/Dianto/Tai/Top's Birthday Party @ BVLD!
(dont ask me why its at BVLD again)

For your visual entertainment...

Happy Belated Birthday to Dianto!
Happy Birthday in advance to Asad/Tai/Top! (: (: (:

so the night of joy, fun and craziness is officially over.
and my hard core study mode is now switched ON!
i've 18 days to revise a whole sem's worth of work.
think you can do it? i can!
although i foresee "im-so-gonna-fail-my-exams" entries ahead,
superwoman rarely fails.

shit happens but always for a reason.
and when it seems too hard to deal with it alone,
im here.

2006-10-19T11:09:00.000-07:00

new game-like blogskin!
click on the circles and drag 'em around to have fun!
many thanks to Ze En and Andy for their help on html. (:

another week has passed and yup,
i still havent switched on my hard core study mood.
all because tai/top's birthday party is around the corner...
and i simply cannot wait to have FUN FUN FUN!
promise to bombard all of you with pictures!!

i have a h-u-g-e stack of laundry to be done
but the washing machine is still nowhere to be found!
it pisses me off because im broke from buying new clothes
and whatever thats left on the wardrobe are ugly.
i know, im a vainpot.

btw, my baby (the huge ass pooh bear) is dirty.
because he's a display piece,
he has therefore has collected all the dust in the world.
so that afternoon when i hugged him for hours,
i developed rashes later on in the night.
i know, its so -.-''
im forbidden to have any form of contact with him.
IM FRIGGING SAD because i cannot hug my babyyy!!
:(

2006-10-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

Tai: "Black is the new Brown." Boo.
(written by tai himself)

tai has the liberty to blog on my blog today all because he's finally agreed to dye his hair black.
its way better than his brown streaky hair, right?!
no more brownish highlights,
shan is a happy lil' girl!
(:

2006-10-17T18:31:00.000-07:00

internet's UP. router's UP.
i love my wireless internet!

anyway i just realised that i've got 4 night lights when im not scared of the dark at all.
but when they look this cute, you've just gotta buy it man!

this is "xiao bai". she changes colour!

and here are the other 3 night lights.
tell me its adorable because its from him.
my 20 outta 24 him. (refer to 28th may entry)
(:

my study timetable's done.
my only task now is to keep to it, which is also the toughest!
aza aza fighting!

2006-10-16T04:35:00.000-07:00

internet's up.
router's down.
what luck!

exam's in 3 weeks time.
i've got another group essay due in 2 weeks.
thank god its a group thing.

and all i can think of is going home.
i dont care about anything anymore.

2006-10-15T00:25:00.000-07:00

just yesterday i said that i dont miss home at all.
but today, all i wanna do is go home to give my mother a big bear hug.

i say there's no need to be strong...
today, tomorrow and for the rest of the days to come.

i cant believe im not home to send my grandfather off.

"你需要安慰, 我陪你掉眼泪"

i wanna go home :(

2006-10-14T05:50:00.000-07:00

shan: "omg i just saw the love of my life but it's gonna costs me xx dollars. should i get it? should i get it?"
tai: "just get it, its the love of your life."
shan: "but but but its xx dollars leh!"
tai: "just get it."

and i did.

LOOK AT MY NEW BABYYY!!
the all time love of my life...
a huge ass winnie the pooh thats bigger and fatter than meee!!

*laughs crazily*
you people have no idea how happy i was.
a small lil' girl smiling from ear to ear walking around DFO with a huge ass pooh bear that turns heads and even kids envy me!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAA!!
although the ultimate childhood dream of mine is to get one thats as tall as me so that he can hug me, this is good enough (:

and i just had another spanking good weekend!

friday was farewell party for gerry 2 so we clubbed at lion's hotel and the music was really good, other than the stupid band that interrupted the R&B music lah.
saturday was DFO and a thought-turned-reality beach outing.
fun fun fun!

its moments like this, i dont miss home at all. (:

ps: internet's officially arriving on the 16th oct.

jiejie:
yah you're really kinda slow, haha! but i have to agree that its pretty unbelievable that im in uni already. and sometimes i still find it hard to accept that im actually overseas. hehe. plus im truly happy studying in australia now. *hugs* i miss you and everyone back home much much!

2006-10-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

library is a very boring place.
study buddies of the day: sheena and markie mark mark!

i've got a H3 for my CCC essay. anything better than a fail is a thumbs up!
haha, i know im easily satisfied but excuse meee its first year first sem okay.
(that'll also be my excuse if i fail other essays)

study time!
(what a random entry 0.0)

2006-10-10T20:23:00.000-07:00

SHAUN'S 20TH @ BVLD!
(er. i realised i didnt take a pic with the birthday boy. haha!)

my two best friends are busy with their As. on top of that, stupid meishan's internet is down so now we have almost zero communication and that sucks. to make things worst, i cant call back sg using my house phone! AHHH. im gonna faint if this continues.

one more week and i'll have internet at my new house.
"wo yao ren!"

right now, its just studying, EXAMS and then HOLIDAYS!!
yayyy. absolutely cant wait. :)

and to you all studying for As,
"jia you jia you jia you!"

2006-10-08T22:55:00.000-07:00

3 weeks worth of lectures to catch up, im in need of a good study plan!
the last weekend of joy is really over and walking to the library again today was totally S-I-A-N.

pictures of BLVD wont be up so soon 'cause camera's with josh.
camwhore mode wasnt switched on because yours truly was literally a walking zombie.
seriously sleep deprived.

so i wont be TV-less anymore!
gonna have tai's tv and dvd player until possibly next year.
YAYYY. my apartment wont be that boring after all.
and a big big THANK YOU to tai (:

and im dying without a washing machine already.
one whole basketfull of laundry waiting for me...
you know, i have to resort to buying new clothes lah.
if not i will be wearing my dirty clothes over and over again. :P

first paper in exactly one month's time, psychology.

AZA AZA FIGHTING!! (:

2006-10-06T04:40:00.000-07:00

my self proclaim holidays (which is also the first week of school) is coming to an end.
but the best is yet to come because...
friday night is mahjong/dota/stayover at josh's huge apartment and
saturday night is clubbing at BLVD!
so i've slacked my week away doing really nothing, skipped a million lectures and slept a hell lot.
and im very proud of myself for doing that btw.
heh heh.

school's gonna start officially for me on monday.
which means no more late nights and skipping lectures for me!

people say good things are worth the wait.
thankfully my wait is over.
(:

2006-10-03T21:06:00.000-07:00

THERE'S SO MANY THINGS I WANNA SAY!
firstly, im still internetless. hence the lack of entries.
secondly, im also still tv-less. hence the lack of entertainment.
lastly, shan is a very very happy girl!!

i had the best weekend slacking at josh's and gerry's place.
i havent slacked like that for the longest time ever, i swear.
and now that my essays are finally over, its the start of sem 2!
when its time to paartaay, my commerce friends are busy with their assignments.
the misery of an arts student! :(
but anyway, i've been relaxing, which is really a good thing!

and since we're tv-less and celest's bedframe is still out of stock,
I CANNOT TAKE PICTURES OF THE NEW HOUSE!

but anyway, i've been smiling alot lately and here's a few reasons why.
1) JAY CHOU POSTER HAS ARRIVED! many thanks to my darling jiejie!

2) THE MR MEN AND LITTLE MISS SERIES IS OUT IN AUSTRALIA!
mr happy and little miss sunshine are my fav!
cant find little miss sunshine though.
but isnt this adorable?? :)

3) SHAN'S HAPPY FAMILY.
spongebob square pants and patrick - cousin. (SIA kid's meal gift. hehe)
baby pooh - mummy!
victor (the brown bear) - victor.
sexy (red devilish bear) - ulynn.
pink cushion - bought it for myself from big w. absolutely loved the material and pattern!

all this things are in my bedroom and so i wake up smiling to myself everyday.
and the feeling is not only shiok shiok shiok and its priceless too!

my last and best piece of news?
I GOT A H2A FOR MY CRIMINOLOGY ESSAY!!
(grading system goes like this: H1, H2A, H2B, H3 and PASS)
*dances around*
totally made my week, not day, week.
but im prepared to get a P for my law essay because i couldnt get a consultation time since its due during the holidays causing my motivation to drop.
oh well, at least i had a H2A for one essay!

shan just cant stop smiling (:

2006-09-30T22:06:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!
my most boring month in melbourne is OVERRR!!
4 essays in a month, im superwoman!
im so proud of myself people. so proud.
because of the essays i have rejected all forms of enjoyment.
because of the essays, i kept saying...
"after this essay, after this essay".
and now im gonna just relax relax relax.

IM SO HAPPY!!
*dances around*

so i guess i wont be studying in the library for awhile now!
or maybe just to use their internet. heh heh.

so now im off to cook my long awaited red bean soup plus mango pudding!

i love the world and everything in it!

2006-09-29T14:36:00.000-07:00

tai's gone, once again i find myself alone in the library.
"its friday lah, friday." -tai.

today clumsy me ditched my "lao gong" and totally forget about him.
i left him in ricebar and didnt realise until i sat down in the library and wanted to use him!
many thanks to tai who accompany me walk back to ricebar to get it.
and thank GOD it was there, the waiter kept it.
*big big phew*
if he's gone, i swear my heart and soul will be gone too.
mind you, its 4 essays inside him okay.
use money also cannot buy back one hor.
must thank god, must thank god!

this is my last essay for semester 1.
due on thurs but i wanna finish it latest sunday evening.
i think im getting obsess with finishing assignments before due date.
damn shiok, the feeling is indescribable.
so anyway, wish me luck!

and i cannot wait for my kiang to come!!
he sms-ed me yesterday and im so looking forward!
not only do i get the love and goodies, i get to see a familiar face too!
then on 6th oct, another cousin of mine is coming!
awww... feel the love people! (:

1300 words more to go and im done for this sem.

ps: i've got cravings for sugar one day after my diet officially starts. die.

2006-09-28T13:43:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO SLIM DOWN!!
"JIAN FEI JIAN FEI!"

yes i know, i know.
this is the Nth time im saying it.
i never ever keep to my diet plans and im not even determined anyway.
but im seriously getting sick of my tummy bulging out when i wear my body hugging clothes and seeing my flabby arms when i wear spag.

so i tried doing sit ups (stopped after one week),
not taking sweet stuffs (only effective for one/two days)
and eating boiled/steam food (damn tasteless).

but this morning, i looked at the mirror and saw my flabby arms and tummy...
i realise that this cannot go on.
at least go back to my usual weight which i shall not reveal here.
this time, i must put all my heart and soul into it.
no more sweet stuffs, no more.

slim down and save money.
i like!

ps: i know there will be people telling me not to slim down anymore 'cause i'd just vanish into thin air but... im still gonna do it. haha! and who cares if i'd lose my non existent boobs, im gonna do breast implants when im 21. LOL!

2006-09-27T12:11:00.000-07:00

my mama would be so proud of me if she knows that i wake up around 9++ everyday to go to the library to research for my essay.
my mama would be so proud of me if she knows that i've completed my law essay earlier than expected.
my mama would be so proud of me if she knows i've been eating and sleeping well lately.
my mama would be so proud of me if she sees how pwetty the new house is.
my mama would be so proud of me if she knows that im doing great in melbourne.

but although im an ocean away from you, i can still hear your sighs and cries in the night.

with your long dist relationships with both me and daddy, plus a full time working daughter and another one struggling with exams, i sure cant imagine what you're doing through now.

and i use to think that im the most pitiful girl because im a cheena piang stuck in a "potato".

"your problems cant even be compared to hers", says rationale.

i'll be your pillar when everything seems to be falling apart.

consoling the inconsolable.

2006-09-26T21:52:00.000-07:00

its the holidays but here i am sitting in the library doing not one but two essays.
universities and all schools should go check out the definition of holiday.
its a time to relax and have fun!
not spending our precious time doing homework can!
PUI PUI PUI.

and to hell with human rights (my essay topic), i dont give a damn.
according to human rights, i have the freedom to do what i want as long as i dont violate other people's human rights.
so in this case, i can chose not to do my essay because it wont affect the lecturer, right?
wtf, but i have to.

"have to" and "want" are very different.
so different that i hate both of them.

right now i just wanna finish this law essay, go home and catch up on my beauty sleep.
because i really cant take this shit anymore.

i hate the world and everything in it.

2006-09-25T19:14:00.000-07:00

alrighty, new house is almost up!
will upload pretty pictures of our new house when everything's settled (:

me and celest are currently disconnected from the world because our TELEPHONE and INTERNET aren't connected yet and we've got NO TV either. oh bother.

although i hate to be internetless, it actually gives me time to be myself for once and not depending on something to survive. this doesnt mean optus can take their own sweet time to set up my internet hor!

surprise! i've got another 2 essays due AGAIN.
one due this friday and another next tuesday.
the misery of an ARTS student.

wish me luck darlings, i can finally be normal after these two essays are done.
and MSN wont be seeing me online very often.
so just sms me/tag on my blog!

2006-09-23T00:32:00.000-07:00

yah, im moving house again.
and this time i feel like an adult because me and celest have to pick furnitures, set up internet/water/electricity/phone and sign endless contracts.
and will be internetless for quite some time because lazy ang mohs are very slow.
but nvm, got 2 more essays due so i'll be pia-ing in the library and using free internet.

before i forget, this is my new address:
4/ 355 RATHDOWNE STREET CARLTON VICTORIA 3053 AUSTRALIA
please update, thank you.

after the phone call with mummy, my problems seem so minor.
because nothing beats losing someone dear.
mummy, you must be strong.
i hate to be continents away from you.

2006-09-22T04:19:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NG HWA HWA!!

it has to be this picture, my dear.
class 401 with shalini's specs, remember? LOL!
shucks i miss your irritating and constipated smile lah.
and now im totally homesick thanks to listening to your voice just now!
i love you honey, forever and ever and ever!
im so sorry i cant celebrate this special day with you
:( :( :(
and if andy bullies you, i will go back and kick his ass. som ba!
you mean the world.
love (:

finished watching "my lovely samsoon", now showing on Channel U i think.
i wanna fall in love all over again.
although i remember telling ulynn that im not prepared for a relationship now.
bah, must be the korean drama mama.

2006-09-20T09:52:00.000-07:00

because all it takes is a small lil' gesture to make someone smile.
and you totally made my day.

thanks tai (:

"i am superwoman!"

2006-09-19T07:05:00.000-07:00

i really shouldnt watch anymore of those korean or taiwan lovey dovey drama series.
not that i cant stop or it distracts me from my work, but that it distorts my perception of love... and reality of course.

how can things always be so sweet?
how can relationships always end happily?
how can there be so many coincidences in life?

maybe i've silently placed all these expectations on my life thats why i face disappointment.
i keep thinking that it should happen the way i see it on TV.
then i find myself walking further and further away from reality.
and eventually sink into denial.

anyway, school holidays will be spent on listening to lectures online, essays, packing and moving house.
cant wait for my handsome cousin to be here so i can get all my goodies!
*pouts*
holidays also sian, no holidays sianer.
holidays that arent exactly holidays is sianest.

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

2006-09-17T02:00:00.000-07:00

IKEA sucks big time. BIG TIME.

after purchasing $709.95 worth of furniture, me and celest found out that IKEA will deliver the goods next day. in other words, if you want to move in on the 23rd, you have to buy the furniture on the 22nd!

how FUCKED up is that?

we had to refund our money and go to ikea again, one day before we move into our new apartment.

pissed, very pissed.

on the bright side, at least we got our sofa settled and burnt a hell lot of calories walking for so many hours. also, we selected all our furnitures and now we just gotta go back there and buy it again!

you know i really shouldnt be feeling this way since its the school holidays.
i should be carefree, happy and excited about the new house.
everything's damn screwed up.
plus im so fugly now.
more sleep needed.

and to you - the biggest jerk i've ever known,
fark off and get out of my life, forever. i hope you're happy now.
we are done.

updated: now that i've cooled down and can actually think properly, i realised im more disappointed than anything else. because you broke your promise and i cant believe im so blind as to believe you. what a fool. btw this is the last time im leaving a msg on my blog for you. because i know you like to see it so here it is. now go away. good bye.

2006-09-16T00:23:00.000-07:00

Guess who's in melbourne??
My favourite pwetty"tai tai", Cassy!
Brought her to Max Brenner to taste the best chocolate on earth BUT i forgot she doesnt like sweet stuffs. Haha!!

and yes twang mei mei, i got your notes plus the candies!
cant believe you forgot how to write "ai" (love) lah. LOL.
and many thanks for yupi gummi bear, i've been craving got it for the longest time ever (:

and then in the night...
It was Sheena's 18th birthday celebration at Platform One!

a million thanks to the ones who helped me, couldnt have survived without you(s).

----------------------------------------------

so many issues to handle and so little courage.
clearly unbalanced.
im sick of living up to people's expectations so please dont place any on me.
so im not that tough, not that optimistic.
what a surprise, even superwoman needs to rest.
cant solve problems which dont exists to you.
im gonna do it at my own pace and time.
meanwhile, lend me your shoulders when i cry,
gimme your hand when i fall,
listen when i talk.
'cause thats all i need.

and to people who dont know anything, stop asking me if im okay.
im not gonna sugarcoat this anymore.
i know you care but i find it irritating and superficial.
if im not okay and i wanna talk about it,
i will tell you myself.

no one understands but everyone cares.
i feel loved.

shan, cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer upcheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up cheer up! =)

2006-09-14T22:24:00.000-07:00

不停回头看,只会让人看不见未来

没必要再去想
是不是因为太少勇气
还是没够信心
或许是不够努力
还是不够相爱

因为一切都已经过去了

原地踏步的我们, 会往前走吗?

"不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有"
很老土的一句话, 我现在才真正明白

眼泪已哭干四肢已无力
所有的期望和信心
也随时间而消失了
是时间往前走了

不停回头看,只会让人看不见未来

再见啦!

2006-09-14T08:12:00.000-07:00

sheena, "eh can don't put ugly picture on your blog for my birthday not!"

as promised, here are 9 ugly pictureS of you, sheena quek!
(didnt think i would have that many do you? heh heh!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENA QUEK BIN HUI!!
you may officially club now (:
im so glad our paths crossed my dear.
if not i would have never known that i have an evil twin on earth!
im so glad to have you as my twin/bestie.
just stop bang seh-ing me before i post more ugly pictures of you hor!
love loads!

school's over people! O-V-E-R!
my school holidays has started and cassy arrived in melbourne already!
yipeee~ im meeting her for dinner tomorrow.
taitai-ism here we come!

2006-09-12T20:48:00.000-07:00

10.09pm
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
my 2 essays are officially done people.
*jumps around*
lalalalalalalalalala....
i finished both my essay before due date leh.
i should be awarded "the most hardworking student in melb uni" or something.
omg im damn happy.
and cassy is coming tomorrow night!
YAYYY. YAYYY. YAYYY.
damn shiok. damn shiok. damn shiok.
me is gonna eat FREDDO(the bestest icecream) later and watch dvd until late in the night.
i dont care, i declare the start of the holidays already!
PARTAYYY PEOPLE PARTAYYY!!!
*dances around*

FAVOURITES

colour:
orange, red, pink.

food:
char kway teow!

movie:
romeo and juliet, and lots more!

sport:
ew. hate sports.

day of the week:
fridays, no school!

season:
summer, only summer!

ice-cream:
roche, chocolate, mango, choc mint.

mood:
sian sian sian.

taste:
anything affordable and pretty :)

clothes:
spag, jeans, heels.

desktop:
my darling lappy and 2 essays to edit/complete.

toenail colour:
normal. broke almost all of them :'(

time:
13:51

surroundings:
im in the library now so... a million and one books and hardworking strangers.

annoyance:
essays, definitely essays.
best friend:
ah mua and hwa hwa.

crush:
im hardly ever crush-free (haha!) so here goes: 1) sunshine 2) proximity 3) law butch 4) chio butch i saw in beach club 5)cool man

lie:
none, i think.

music:
anything slow by jay chou.

LAST

cigarette:
hate it to the core so what do you think?

drink:
water :(

ride:
tram to school.

crush:
some guy lah.

movie:
lake house.

phonecall:
gerry.

cd:
taufik, sg idol's CD.

classical songs:
dislike classical, dont listen to them unless necessary.

HAVE YOU EVER

dated one of ur best friends:
er you mean guy bestie right? i think so.

broken the law:
many many. jaywalk, litter, clubbed with other's id, alcohol before 18...

been arrested:
siao siao, of course not. dont wanna be deported back.

skinny-dipped:
not yet. hehe!

been on tv:
newspaper yes, tv no.

kissed someone that you don't know:
not yet. hehe!

4 things you did today:
settled the new house contract with agent, checked my mail, ate lunch and used my brain on this.

3 things you can hear right now:
my typing, jay chou song and my coughs.

random facts about me:
queer, blunt, cheena piang, dont like ang mohs, bitchy, shoppaholic, bimbo at times.

7 things that scare me:
essays not completed on time, no moolah($$), bad hair day, pimples, gaining weight, mood swings and DOGS!!

7 random music at the moment:
bai se feng che - jay chou
tui hou - jay chou
xin yu - jay chou
qian li zhi wai - jay chou feat. fei yu qing
hong mo fang - jay chou
superwoman - chao ge
yuan lai - lin jun jie

7 things i say most:
haha
really?
fark
wa lao
cool
i dont know leh
YAYYY

7 people to do this:
(: anyone who is reading this now and is as bored as me.

2006-09-11T01:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOEL LEE!
(who can forget your birthday man?!)

it seems like after the break up period comes the highly stressed up period.
everyone's irritable.
everyone's piss-able.
everyone is simply not themselves.
me included.

currently, half my essay is done.
i cant say im very pleased with myself but yar, its alright.
Sem Break is just around the corner and I CAN'T WAIT!
not that i'll be very free but at least i can concentrate doing the other 2 essays without having to attend lessons that costs $56 each.

and stop trying to decipher my blog entries/msn nick.
because if i wanted to, i would write it loud and clear.
or i will tell you myself.
and once again, lemme say this.
its nothing.

8.16pm
B.A.D B.A.D B.A.D B.A.D
im stuck. i dont know how to continue writing my essay.
im so dead. dead. dead.
all i can think of is watching that taiwan drama i started last night,
called "er mo zai shen bian".
ass, the 2 main actors damn shuai can.
is damn cute lah! damn cute lah!
i knew it, i shouldnt have started watching it.
now im distracted, tired and stuck.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

2006-09-10T19:15:00.000-07:00

yesterday i told someone... i always thought my way of doing things will make her happy. then it dawned on me that it hasn't and it wont, ever.

today when i checked my email, a particular someone told me the exact same thing.

its funny how human beings always think that their way of doing things will work or that its the best method. at the end of the day, we're just egocentric and useless creatures.

sometimes i really wish i have the faith to "let go and let God".

2006-09-09T02:32:00.002-07:00

because there's only this much in life that can bring you down.
essays, school, relationships, friendships, family, work etc etc etc.
and what actually matters is your attitude.
so bring it on, Bitch!
i wont say die and i'll pick myself up from every fall.
bring it on. just bring it on.
today i woke up feeling like i can do anything in the world.
and you know what?
i can.
'cause i wont give up trying to succeed.

life's a bitch. but not for long.
(:

slow and steady wins the race.
essay is in good progress.

2006-09-08T22:32:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY, HENRY!

you may be an ass at times, irritating most of the times.
BUT!
there are times when you make me laugh at your silliness
and im glad you share my taste in music! (:

3,33pm @ Ballieu Library
im so happy today.
my tutor approved of my essay plan and i finished my introduction!
which of course, may not seem to be a big deal to you but its a good start at least!
there may be new tenants taking over our apartment so that means no fine for us!
today is a much better day than yesterday.
and tomorrow? EVEN BETTER.
an optimistic attitude goes a long way people!

2006-09-07T05:29:00.000-07:00

List up to ten things you want to say to ten different people in no particular order.
Do not state who these people are.

1. you think that i'm always there. truth is, im only human.
2. you've always stood by my side, caring and giving me endless support. dont think i take you for granted, i didnt. im sorry im not the sort who will openly show my appreciation. thank you! and i love you. :)
3. you dont understand although you always say you do. you dont and i know it.
4. i dont like you at all, i wish you'd vanish into thin air.
5. its a dead end ahead, would you still walk with me?
6. i wish i can tell you everything, anything. but thats not how we started and i accept that.
7. i hated your attitude. im so thankful you've changed now. because i love you too much to let go of our "ship".
8. you're too demanding, you make me miserable.
9. you're one of the most irritating people i know. but i know its because you care.
10. i wish you happiness and that you will stop thinking of ending your life. because i care.

good news -
new apartment settled! lovely place behind lygon safeway. wish i could be as excited as celest but sorry, essays have drained out all my positive emotions. looking forward to decorating it though.
and!
cassy is coming sooon!! WOOHOO!

bad news -
i feel totally useless. just got half my essay draft out. popped several strepsils for my cough, vitamin C pills for my cold. and now i have a headache. (zzz) im going home to pop some more panadols. im starting to think my XS body have given up on me.

2006-09-06T06:03:00.000-07:00

itunes/nano blasting louder than before.
snacking more than usual.
irritating cough sounds and clearing of throat.
damn stressed. damn stressed.
with the love and grace of God, i completed one essay.
bad news? 1 more to go (before sem break).

so i decided to take a break from all the shiat and watched "Romeo and Juliet".
pressed stop button after an hour to prevent myself from crying at the ending.
:( romeo and juliet, like titanic, will cause me to emo for the next few days.
too big a risk for my essay.

i cant wait for next friday to come.
15th sept, thats when both my essays will be over.

God bless me.
im very tired.

blogging frequency increased due to essay stress and shan's in desperate need of a ranting ground.

"This bud of love, by summer's ripening breath,
May prove a beauteous flower when next we meet."

"O Romeo, Romeo! wherefore art thou Romeo?"

2006-09-05T08:13:00.000-07:00

just be there for me, like you've always been, through the years im overseas.
because it has developed into a daily ritual of ours, lets not break it okay?
because its a time i look forward to from day to day.
a time where i can take a break from the essays and shiats of life.
you dont know how you always put a smile to my face,
and how i can just be myself with you.
so theres nothing to commit into, just be there for me.
like how i would be there for you.

you let me know what i fought for was right, thank you. (:

2006-09-05T06:33:00.000-07:00

**WONDERFUL MOMENTS @ BLVD**
GERRY'S 18TH BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION.
all the yandaos, chiobus, unglam, spastic... here here here!!

2006-09-04T02:26:00.000-07:00

i was wrong, so wrong.
to think that if im willing to do something for you, you would do likewise.

i thought that you would do that for me. FOR ME.
obviously not.

walking down one way road.

im kicking too big a fuss about it.

-------------------------------------------------------------
12.40am
im no big fan of reptiles or crocodile but i found his death pretty sad.

click on the link:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20060904/en_afp/australiapeopleirwinwildlife_060904125808

i think its a big loss for australia. :(

2006-09-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

to one of my bestie in melbourne,
to the most sporty girl i've ever met,
(i live in a shan-filled world)
to the girl who always put others above herself,
to a pig who is always hungry,
to a lady mafia who can multi task,
to the clubbing caretaker,
and the very steady pom pi pi friend....

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, GERRY!!
(psst, now we dont have to hide in the toilet cubicle when police raid clubs!)
remember, we love you much much!

i would upload the crazy photos we took in BLVD yesterday but camera's with tai.
soon people, very soon!

urgh, i have to complete 2 essays in 10 days.
born to be together, me and essays.

2006-09-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

"Today is bright and sunny!" - sheena
but when we went to the beach it was cloudy already.
rawr, melbourne weather!
but we still had fun!!!

it was sports freak vs. bimbos day!
gerry, xian and fang played frisbee and volleyball...
me, shee and ulynn were eating/camwhoring/tanning!
-grin-

note: NEW BIKINI! quite minni mouse, i like!
wish i have bigger boobs though. =P

more pics coming up peeps!

dont bury your head in a pile of books!
have a good weekend!

2006-08-31T04:43:00.000-07:00

I HATE REFERENCING.

copy and paste Celest, "i hate i hate i hate i hate".
that's my way of referencing for you.

it is freaking troublesome to do referencing in essays!!!
whats the point of it anyway?!
its tedious for the writer and hard to read for the marker!
can you imagine, at the end of every other sentence, you have to include a bracket, author's name, year and page number??

why do we need other people to back us up man, what, we're unreliable is it?
why is it that only after you've written a book/journal article that you're considered reliable?
WHY WHY WHY?

now im a typical university student because my teachers once told me that when one enters uni, they start to question, ALOT.

referencing is seriously pissing me off big time because i'm half way through my essay (which is good news) but i got no references to back me up!
urgh. first time this is happening to me btw.
usually i have soooo many references, i'll go over my word limit.

what am i gonna do??

you know what, now im referencing other people.
wait till i get my phD.
all you people will be referencing
me me me me me!
-evil laughs-

er okay.
now that its off my chest.
i shall stop dreaming and get back to my essays.
not forgetting, finding damn references.

tomorrow will be a better day, i like assuring myself that.

2006-08-29T01:12:00.000-07:00

my apologies for the previous post, wasnt in the right state of mind.
but then again, when was i ever in the right state? HAHA!
and according to Ms Ho's theory, she doesnt take down any entries.
no point taking down what you wrote, right?
makes everything look suspicious.

i wasted the whole of today and i feel damn irritated with myself now.
went to the gym feeling highly motivated to run for 30 mins but ended up with a stitch.
all that bubbletea's fault! -.-
so i ended up running for only 15 mins, which is totally useless.
headed to library afterwards and omgosh.
i practically stared at my computer for dunnohowmany hours.
braindead.

this cannot continue!!
its not a matter of "H1 or pass" already.
now its "pass or fail"!
i gotta stop being such a lazy ass and start doing REAL work.
AZA AZA FIGHTING!!

oh Mr Motivation, please stay by my side.

and! my diet isnt working. die.
by hook or by crook, must cut that 2kg!
if not summertime go beach not sexaaay enough.
LOL.

To all my friends doing their As, esp Mua and Hwa:
Jia You Jia You Jia You!! I know that i make it sound damn easy because im not in your shoes, but i hope it comforts you to know that life aint easy for me too. So dont give up hor, only a few months left. After that, you'll be soooo free you'll actually miss studying! Haha, thats when you guys can fly over to Melb and visit meeee! :) Loves!

2006-08-28T06:37:00.000-07:00

im speechless.
now what do you want me to say?
lets just say i brought it upon myself.

therapy: clubbing on saturday night to celebrate Gerry's birthday.

alcoholalcoholalcohol.

walk away, i promise not to give chase.

没有期望, 不会失望!

2006-08-27T05:00:00.000-07:00

human beings can be such a disappointment at times.
i should be mugging for my essays but my body is incapable of such heavy workload now.
over the night, i have produced countless 'wantons' (tissues filled with mucus).
on top of that, the amount of tissues i've used is enough to cut down another rainforest.
everything's spinning, either that or im dizzy.

the heart says,
"take a break."

rationale says,
"oh stop the self pitying. thats sooo you. now get back to the essays."

:( emo shan wants to be home tonight.

and today, there's no need to be superwoman.

2006-08-25T21:04:00.000-07:00

1.59pm
deflated completely.

i've got 4 essays at hand.
and zero motivation.

hows that?

1.52am
still deflated.
i feel like shit.
gummi bear, where are you?

you dont see me,
you dont need me,
you dont love me,
the way i wish you would.
the way i know you could. - Paris Hilton

2006-08-24T09:34:00.000-07:00

my moto v3x is finally bling bling!
big thanks to my jiejie for buying it and my mama who snail mail it over! :) LOVES.

and just in case my mum misses me too much, here's a pic.
i did my hair the "curry puff" way today! :)

my life's still very boring.
please dont ask me "wadssup" sort of questions anymore.
nothing is UP, really.

dont take what doesnt belongs to you.
because it will still slip away, somehow.

2006-08-22T04:40:00.000-07:00

so much for that self discipline entry, i was really toooooo tired to go for my 11am lecture yet again. its because tuesdays are damn shitty okay. i have a lect at 11am followed by another lecture at 515pm! not my fault!
(if you still havent realise, i have a habit of defending myself)

so anyway i woke up and celest told me,
"shan, do you have any idea how much each lecture costs?"

no one has looked from this perspective before and that caused me to be highly disturbed. so i went home after my 515pm lecture and rushed into celest room to borrow her calculator. guess what?!

freaking $56 for an hour of lecture or tutorial!!
this means that for any lect/tut that i miss, it would be equivalent to throwing away a pair of pretty heels! (i realise that this is quite a bimbotic statement but er, nvm.)
till date, i have thrown away $168.
my mama and papa is so gonna kill meeee.

no more ponning school seriously.
throwing $56 away is just crap.

University of Melbourne is ripping us international students!!
fark.

time for some serious studying.
with my favourite biscuit of all time......

i know what you're thinking, im not a baby!!!
shad up.

i wont reveal my school fees so dont bother asking.
lest some people who have nothing better to do start saying rubbish.

2006-08-21T08:44:00.000-07:00

i could sooo see this coming.
a period of time where im overcome by sian-ness.
without motivation, goals and desire.
why, why would i say that i was looking forward to uni life?
it is boring beyond words!

*pulls hair*

i feel like a robot.
lecture -> tutorial -> readings -> lecture -> tutorial -> readings.
its a never ending cycle!
AND I HATE CYCLES!!

*pulls hair*

i cannot understand why i slogged so hard in trinity just to enter uni.
i still have to continue slogging like a cow to get that piece of paper called certificate.
plus! a normal cert wouldnt do, it has to be a cert with a H2A or H1!
if not i can go back sg and be a social worker for the rest of my life.

*eyes open big*

cannot cannot!
my aim for the next 3 years is to get a min of H2A so i can do my honours.
i must always keep that in mind.

like this morning when i had to wake up for my 11am class, (very early okay!)
i had a mental struggle.
"H1 or pass H1 or pass H1 or pass..."
after a 2mins struggle, i finally decided that it would do me good to go for that lecture.

then in the afternoon, i skipped a tutorial.
har har, so much for inner struggle right.
i have ZERO self discipline, people.
my friends skip, i skip.

this cannot continue, HO YUN SHAN.
or you can go back and sell char kway teow.
but you'll probably end up eating all of it and become a big fat ass.

right, more discipline for myself!

and please, dont tell me when you skip a tut/lect! thank you!

2006-08-21T08:37:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, MARKIE MARK MARK!

2006-08-20T00:35:00.000-07:00

19th Aug 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HILSON!

20th Aug 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GUANLIANG aka Mr Pang Seh Kia!!

commerce people have work/essays due very soon. AND I DONT!!
haha but that doesnt mean i can have fun 'cause most of my friends are in commerce.
so if they aren't free, i cant partaaayyy either.
S-I-A-N.

melbourne is getting boring, im serious.
we actually have to brainstorm about what to do over the weekends and it has become a weekly thing.
"eh what are we gonna do tomorrow ah? FRIDAY night leh!"
"huh... dunno leh... sian."
i need something to spice up my life. something happening.
something i can look forward to weekly and help me destress.
boohoo, i have no life! :(

im seriously lifeless.

let's go heaven.
god promised no tears.
now which way do i go from here?

2006-08-16T07:00:00.000-07:00

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME THERE'S SOMEONE OUT THERE FOR ME, WHO WOULD LOVE ME FOR MEEE!!

because tai and me were on this topic. and i said i believe that the world is soooo big, there's surely someone who would love me for meee.

and tai said:
"yunshan, i will hope the best for you. cos it nv happened to me. i dont think so, but it might just happen to you. miracles do happen."

not believing him, i replied:
"sure got la tai i tell u. sure got one. is a matter of can find or not only."

tai then said:
i gave that idea up like 2 years ago and i found the other side of me. but i really missed being stupid. haha, so i wouldnt want you to change. believe in yourself, thats all it takes!"

meee:
"wth! i hate u!"

tai:
"nooo noo. its fortunate to be yourself. bimbo at times, cute most of the times, sleeps like pumba, motivated to spend a noon in the library. aint that special enough. and you are positive somemore lor."

LOL! (: Thanks tai, that was such a true description of me.

Anyway people, today is a b-e-a-u-tiful day.
I got full marks for my law presentation and im sooo proud of myself! I've been proclaiming this good news to the world and im not sick of it yet. Heee.

In Celesteee's wise words, "think happy thoughts!". It cant go wrong! :) :) :)

2006-08-15T07:16:00.000-07:00

studying overseas can be really depressing.

i mean, i can understand (although not fully) why people would wanna go back sg and study. its HOME we're talking about.

a place where you dont have to pay rent, buy groceries, pay handphone bill, do the laundry and cook. in short, HEAVEN.

HOME = HEAVEN!

no one's gonna fold your clothes neatly.
no one's gonna clean your shoes.
the fridge's not gonna be filled with food automatically.
no one's gonna throw the trashbin.
if you dont pay rent on time, you get evicted.
and there's electricity/handphone and water bills waiting.
you do it all by yourself.

plus, when things dont go my way, i just wanna bang the wall.
yes i made new friends but lets face it,
how can they be compared to people who grew up with me?
not to mention study stress.
there are times when i just wanna give up everything and head home.
in fact, many times.

and yes, for the dunnohowmany times i have heard,
"its a big step leaving home and study in a foreign land..."
i say dont bullshit until you experienced it.
i wouldnt say its a big step but i would think that it is a worthy step.

i know that people get homesick, tired and unmotivated.
but there are so many of us feeling the same way.
please dont give up this beautiful yet tough journey.
nothing in the world is easy anyway, consider this training.
dont give up so easily.
good things dont come easy, remember?

suddenly i sound an optimistic motivator.
dont worry, even i am disgusted with myself.
lets just keep this entry.
just in case i feel like giving up for the Nth time.
dedicated to anyone who is homesick or sick of studying overseas.

2006-08-13T07:57:00.000-07:00

im scared of taking the wrong step so i dont walk at all.
im scared of making mistakes so i escape from my problems.
im never gonna fly.

i stumble, i fall but i dont pick myself up.
its probably not a matter of whether i can or not.
rather, do i want to?

who would give up something so beautiful.
something they both fought so hard for.

we cant talk until the wee hours of the morning.
you cannot walk me to school or back home anymore.
you cannot cheer me up with your idiotic faces...
i just cant face up to the fact that you're no longer by my side.

its painful to walk alone.
it hurts even more to know that you feel the same way.

the heart says,
"i think we can get through this together. take me back, it may really work."

rationale says,
"stop farking lying to yourself!"

this is taking longer than expected.
heck, i have all the time in the world.

my stomach's pain. i dont know why.
my heart's aching. and i know why.

this is gonna take forever.

2006-08-11T06:59:00.000-07:00

*~ALL THE JOY IN THE
WORLD~*

2006-08-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

Yesterday was paaartyyy time at Velour, organised by Sg Student Society! Yeah yeah, suddenly very patriotic of me. I dont even watch NDP man. I seriously cant understand why some people would forgo a party to stay at home and watch the NDP online. Even if there's no party i also wouldnt watch it online. Im sorry, really dont understand.

The party sucked at first lah 'cause they had someone playing ER HU. Yes, playing er hu in a club. -.-'' Then there was the fashion show which none of us were interested in. We just sat at one corner of the club and entertained ourselves. The camera and beer = ultimate combination. I cant wait to get hold of the pictures!! Haha... FUN FUN FUN!!

Now my legs hurt because i danced the night away with my 10cm heels. And i have no idea why do i have blueblacks on my legs. My poor ugly short legs.

Yup, last night was great! I need more of this. More more more! (:

back to where we started, taking on the same roles.
ive been such an ass.
im sorry i cant be your superwoman.
i hate myself too.
hello and goodbye, my love.

2006-08-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

I bought 3 dresses, a top and a bag over the weekend. Dont look at me, they're reasonably cheap! (: This is to make up for the many pieces of cloth i left in sg! Im still sad over it btw. And i still want them!! BOOO. Oh and i got the highest pair of heels ever. It adds like 10cm. Haha!

Im adjusting well to uni life. Lectures/tutorials/endless readings/library visits have become so common, its like drinking a cup of bubbletea daily. Hehe! Tutorials are getting much better because i've decided to open up to earn myself some participation marks so in a way, im forced to. Oh but acting smart and bullshitting can be really fun! The painful thing has gotta be the stack of readings but the good news is, im getting used to it. So dont worry, Shan's got it all under control.

Im gaining weight again, seriously. At this rate that i binge on fries and bubbletea, im gonna be like 3kg heavier in no time! AH! I need my xxx to get these cravings outta my system. I tried drinking chin chow but its useless. I'll try eating pineapple soon. Urgh.

Me: "eh how come i cant print slide 9 one ah?"
Ulynn: "cannot meh, lemme try. is the num lock thing?"
Me: "dunno leh..."
Ulynn: "is it dont have slide 9..."
(Me open eyes big big)
Me: "ya hor!!"
Ulynn: BIMBS!! BIMBS!! (short form for bimbo)

Okay this whole entry is so random -.-
Im going to bed now.
Good night all.

告诉我... 这不会是另一场梦.
别让我飞上天堂... 然后掉下18 层地域.

2006-08-05T04:51:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you dont need alcohol to be high...

all you need is a bunch of mad friends! (:

天气预报：今天白天有点想你，下午转大至暴想，心情将由此降低五度，受此低情绪影响，预计此类天气将持续到见到你为止!

一次偶然的相遇,一次甜蜜的约会,一次激情的拥抱,一次伤感的别离.认识你,就是一个完美的结局.

2006-08-02T21:40:00.000-07:00

Rationale says,
"Good job! What needs to be done has been done. Its now or never, now move on. "

The Heart says,
"I didnt mean it, i really dont. Please dont make me go through this over and over again. Dont make me go back to square one now. The heart is fragile, it breaks. Now what am i gonna do?"

If only one could hear what the heart says.

The packet of back-up gummi bears lying on my table has to be open after all.

Right now, i just wanna be alone.

Or maybe some alcohol.

2006-08-01T02:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY xxTH BIRTHDAY MISS LEE U LYNN!! (:

[updated 2nd aug 06, 1.35pm]
I run and i hide. But i can never escape Math.
Once again i find myself overloaded with formulae, X and Y axis, QM(?!)...
I really wanted to strangle myself during the QM bridging lecture.
*sad wee wee*
Lesson learnt - face up to your problems.
Heee, i have thus printed previous sem's QM lect notes.
(: so proud of myself.
i shall not mention that i tried to read the QM txbk previously & gave up after 2 chapters.

Copy and Paste
"give yourself something to look forward to, for me it is as simple as getting my weekly 8 days."
Very inspiring, jie jie. Thanks!

From now on, i shall look forward to every friday.
Because i have no lessons!
WOOHOO!
But for now, its WEDNESDAY BLUES. (lessons from 11am to 6pm)

2006-07-29T09:47:00.000-07:00

Its been a depressing week.

There are times when i just feel really tired of everything.
And at times like this, i wanna give up uni life and go back home.
I forget what im fighting for, i lose my motivation.
I just wanna go home.
I need to recharge.

I have to say i havent been a very good friend lately.
And i think study stress is simply an excuse.
Im selfish to place myself above my friends when they need me the most.
Sorry, peeps.
I've been a disappointment.

Right now, i just want the sky to tumble down on me.

Bring me back to the right path,
give me strength so that i dont fall.
Most importantly, so that my friends can depend on me.

When shit happens, it doesnt come alone.
Trust me on that.

"i buy a big big winne the pooh with a wedding ring in the center of its hands for u!"

2006-07-27T01:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWANG MEI SHAN!!

My darling girl has finally turned 18!
Yayyy! I love you hunnny!
And im upset that i cant celebrate this special day with you :(
Dont get too stressed up over As, you can do it. I believe in you and hwa.
Please also take good care of your health, dont sprain here, diarrohea there, fever everywhere.
Im not there to bring you to the doc hor.
*rolls eye* cant take care of yourself without me.
HAW HAW HAW!

Please visit meee soon!!

*big bear huggg*

2006-07-25T01:10:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, i was optimistic about life.
Once upon a time, i was more forgiving/accepting/tolerant of people.
Once upon a time, i was a devout christian.
Once upon a time, i was naive to think that he was the one.
Once upon a time, i thought i had the perfect life.

Then i found out that God's definition of perfect is very different from mine.

Kids should not be taught to read fairytales.
They are all lies.

Sleep beauty suffered from insomia.
Cinderella never went to the prince's ball.
Snow white's prince never came and gave her the kiss which brought her back to life.

And they did not live happily ever after.

2006-07-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

There wont be any emo entries.
At least not in the near future.
Because time has healed my wound.
No more pain. No longer itchy. No infections.
Nothing.
This day has finally arrived.
And i feel weirdly happy.
Its time to stop this game baby.
No more "Hide and Seek".
Im over it.

It ended.
Doesnt mean it will be forgotten.
It stays, forever.

GAME OVER, baby.
Im tired.

On a lighter note,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!! I love you!

2006-07-18T22:35:00.000-07:00

WE ARE BACCCCK!

Orientation week is BORING (and im only half way through the week.) Okay, i know that orientations are never interesting but melbourne uni's one is seriously terrible. At least they dont make people play idiotic getting-to-know-more-people games. I hate those silly games! So anyway, i have been enrolled and given my student card (a piece of laminated paper). The student card sucks, my school fees are sky high and they cant even provide a proper card. Stingy assholes. Bleah.

I had to wake up at 8 today because my appointment with the student subjects advisor was at 9.30am. So irritating. The stupid theatre was freaking hard to find 'cause Old Arts Building is under construction and i had to make dont know how many detours. -.- Enough of the crap, my subjects are:

Psychology -Social, develop and clinical psychology
Criminology - Crime and control
Gender studies - Sex, Gender and Power
Socio-Legal studies - Law in society

That nice "Mr Man" worked out how my modules would look like after i told him i wanna graduate with 2 majors, Psychology and Criminology.

1st year- Study all of the above.

2nd year- Psy, Criminology and either Gender/Socio-legal.

3rd year- only Psy and Criminology.

How cool, right? Haha! Im finally studying what im interested in! Woohoo!! Anyway, this is the last non-studying week for me. So me and ulynn stayed over at Gerry's place yesterday. We rented "The Hostel", "Date Movie" and "Boo". DO NOT WATCH BOO. It was so boring we just decided to sleep after watching half of it. The Hostel was gory, full of blood and dead bodies. My kind of movie. Heeee. Go watch it if you like gruesome shows.

And im finally the proud owner of an orange Motorola V3x! YAYYY. Pictures taken using my v3x.

(me & gerry/ mars bar cheese cake/ evil twin & me)

2006-07-15T05:40:00.000-07:00

Yup, my holidays are officially over!

The flight was DISGUSTING, BORING and UNCOMFORTABLE. Its bad enough that the flight was delayed twice but the worst thing was THE PLANE HAD NO TV!!!

Me: "Eh sheena, how come dont have the movies booklet one har?"
Sheena: "Sure got one la, look properly."
Me: -freeze- "OMG THEY DONT EVEN HAVE A TV LARRRR!!!"

Like planes without tvs are freaking old can, Qantas cant even be bothered to upgrade la. I tell you, it was one torturous and loooong journey. PUI!

Anyway, after two hours, we had to transit our flight in Bali. (yes, i am stupid. but i refuse to type out the long history behind this.) And guess what, we are told that we're gonna have a not-s0-normal security check. Those idiotic security guards opened up everyone's bag to check for i dont know what, bombs?! Plus, there were female security guards stationed there to check if we have any suspicious weapons on our body.

Copy and paste, "Bali Bombings".

And then finally, we headed back to melbourne. Haha, and melbourne was raining from morning to night. So suay la. Oh but the weather was damn shiok.

And i got myself the orange motorola v3x! YAYYYY.

Darlings,thanks for sending me off again! Heee, love loads! :)

2006-07-13T17:10:00.000-07:00

6.10pm.
Im farking dead.
My luggage is giving me a BIG headache!
Im allowed to check in 20kg of things (asshole QF) but i have 50kg!!
FAINT.

12.45pm.
After packing and unpacking a thousand times, my luggage is now 30kg.
Mind you, it isnt even full.
I therefore conclude that... MY EMPTY LUGGAGE IS HEAVY!!!
Me is pissed at Qantas.
Me will never sit Qantas again unless it is a die die situation.
So listen up, DONT SIT QANTAS OR BRITISH AIRWAY.
Support SIA.
They give student allowances!
I LOVE SINGAPORE!

2.35am.
To all Rain (bi) fans, this video is a MUST WATCH!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VizspMw5QPk
This video is by Rain himself and he filmed his apartment in Seoul.
I have no idea wth he was talking in the video.
Its about time i learn Korean! (:
And i finished packing already!
Woohoo!!

Not forgetting...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTOR LI JIA RUI!!!

2006-07-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

Today is a beautiful day! My relatives from HK came to visit and my cutest niece conveniently forgot who i am :( I felt pretty old when she called me "aunt". BOO. So anyway, i had one of the best bubbletea today. Its from a small bubbletea shop near junction 8. I love it, with the chewy pearls and not-so-sweet drink. Not forgetting to mention that it was my darling sister that got it for me as a farewell present! Its not cheapo okay, i requested it. Haha... i'm gonna have to say goodbye to cheap and tasty bbtea very very soon. Oh, have i told you? I have a friend who is ugly beyond ugly, stupid beyond stupid. Also, a friend who happens to be obsess with my itunes. Last but not least, a spastic brudder who has the same frequency as me when it comes to camwhoring. Haha! And they were all gathered at my messy place today! WOOHOO!!
No wonder people say it is the quality that counts, not quantity! Its been such a short while my dears, but it was truly enjoyable and memorable. Simply thinking about the times we had together will help me through my darkest times overseas. BIG BEAR HUGGS.

2006-07-10T00:08:00.000-07:00

its time for me to start packing my luggage, again.
i dont know why am i still sitting in front of my lappy, doing nothing.
maybe if i dont pack, i dont have to go back australia.

DREAM ON.

oh bother, its a nice dream though!

2006-07-09T23:25:00.000-07:00

we hardly talk nowadays.
so when we actually do, would you mind not throwing your temper at me?!
i dont know you anymore.
if you dont wanna share your life with me, go away.
walk far away and dont turn back.
maybe they are right, i dont need you.
i only need to be stronger.
right now im quite pissed.

why dont you just leave, really.
this is getting tiring.
im sick and tired of this shit.

i told you, i hate cycles.

2006-07-08T03:00:00.000-07:00

Its 3am and im not watching world cup. What a surprise, i know. I just got back from Wala Wala and took a bath. While waiting for my hair to dry, me shall blog about my wonderful moments! Although ah mua's birthday is 2 weeks away, we celebrated it in advance because somebody here is going back next friday! (goodness gracious me!)

TaiTai-s to be!
Me&Carina/Pretty Girlfriends/Shimin&Hwa&Me
Yummy yummy food at The Altivo Bar
And an overjoyed Twang Ah Mua!

I hope you had lotsa fun Meishan, 'cause i sure did! (: After all, it isnt everyday that one gets to dress up pretty and have a free meal! Heeee. Thanks for the meal!!

Im going back Melbourne this coming friday, 14th July. Flight no: QF144. Departure time: 715pm. Im excited and unwilling at the same time. Uni life seems really attractive in the sense that im in a different phase of my life... im growing up! But then, i have to leave SG again! Oh bother!

2006-07-05T04:15:00.000-07:00

5th July 2005 - "see you again!"

5th July 2006 - where are you?

we didnt say goodbye.

2006-07-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

Menstrual delay has been quite a big headache. Tantrums, stoning, backaches plus many many headaches that lasts for nights. And panadols dont work particularly well for me, thus i avoid eating them. But today, my misery has ended! (: Im no longer cranky. I hope. Oh well, im never nice. Im still the bitchy and mean girl you all know.

On a lighter note, i went ice skating for the 1st time in my entire life with my melb friends yesterday. I can safely say that the most show off ah bengs and ah lians hang out at Jurong Entertainment Center. And we totally went on the wrong day, thinking that monday will be not crowded at all. But suay enough, turns out to be Youth Day! Disgusting bunch of youths who should be studying at home. URGH! Okay anyway, there were a few (countable using my fingers) who were speed skating there. I dont know whats wrong with them or maybe they just needed to show off their oh-so-great skills in front of people. Those bunch of idiots, not caring about others safety, started speed skating and pushed everyone. Know whats worst? They purposely braked at a puddle of water. I think they get a kick seeing people's clothes get wet 'cause of their wonderful braking skills. I didnt even fall and my jeans got wet 'cause of them. Sickening show off pigs. Just as well, i have decided that my future boyfriend, HIM, cannot be a professional skater. I think they look seriously gay. Ice skating is for girls and small boys (in my dictionary, cannot ah?). So my future boyfriend, go like soccer/bball/tennis or whatever sports there are. Run away from ice skating. So damn GAY. But i did enjoy myself! (:

I havent been sleeping well lately. Its the dreams im telling you. I keep dreaming that im going to die. And its so not funny 'cause i wake up and find myself crying, both in reality and in my dreams. The first dream, i woke up just before the sharp metal rod went through my heart. The second dream, i woke up just before my body hit the ground from a high rise building. Im scared of dreams, i wish i wont have anymore dreams concerning deaths. It scared the shit outta me i swear. AHHH. I need to get a good night sleep desperately.

I've been mourning over Brazil. I still cannot believe it. Utterly disappointed in them lah.

Exactly 10 days left in SG.

2006-07-01T10:15:00.000-07:00

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to WeiFang!! (:

Secondly, what do you guys think of this handphone?
Its avaliable in melb and im thinking of buying this.
Dont ask me to get the lastest gadget, melbourne is SLOWER than my granny.
Anyway, absolutely adore the colour!

Melbourne Uni's pre departure talk is bullshit. A total waste of my precious time. No handsome guys at all. Bleah. Hahaha!!

2006-06-30T08:40:00.000-07:00

MY BIRTHDAY PICTURES!

fatty arms and my shiats!

candid shot. oh so natural.
at the chalet.
401's AH BU bbqing for us!
me and 1/2 of the SWK.
and the madness began....
totally cant stand your face, hwahwa(middle)!!
the house(?), telephone(!) and the only normal person in the room.
overloaded with happiness!
meet "zi lian" queen, twang ah mua!

(oh, isnt my manicure pweeety??)

i know, we totally cannot pull off as models.
i have no idea wth were we doing in this pic!
"dont smile! dont smile!"
i love my SHIATS! (:
and meet my melbourne buddies who celebrated my bdae in the night!

I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!

Countdown to Melb: 14 days.

2006-06-29T00:59:00.000-07:00

THE RULES:
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test and leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. (more than sometimes in fact)
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost,and scar-free. I need money right now!
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (i love fake nails)
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. (ALOT)
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (LOVE LOVE LOVE!!)
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
Im a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (-.-)
I have rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future. (at least 2)
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. (too much)
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before. (and i like it)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (italian pizzas are much better)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys. (totally.)
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs. (i happen to love them. 9-5 in an air con room. shiok!)
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state. (out of sg yeah?)
I like sausages. (cheese ones esp)
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing. (actually i do know why)
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in. (believe it or not!)
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep. (sometimes)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo. (i got no guts)
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (during exam period)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. (im obssess over guys, rem?)

I wasnt stabbed by Szefong, i just ripped it off her blog.
I told you im freaking bored!!
*pulls my newly straightened $175 hair*
Dont worry, i wont stab anyone since i did it to kill time.
Do it if you want.
It really kills time (:
Bored, im bored.
Im off to finding things to kill my boredom.
SIAN.

`` i just realised my blog cant view bold fonts, so i had to make the true statements bigger. yes, more time wasted. ``

2006-06-28T11:41:00.000-07:00

" I feel like im running on the gym's treadmill.

I think i am moving forward but actually im still on the same spot."

i need to stop PMS-ing.

2006-06-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

So i straightened my hair for $175 at Chapter 2.
Im back to being boring Shan.
My hair is short now... short!
The hairdresser cut away like 5cm of my hair! :( :( :(
Cant believe i have to grow my hair all over again!
Its like an evil cycle. EVIL.

Talking about cycles, can i tell you how much i hate cycles?
Cycles = never ending.
This means going through the same thing over and over and over again.
Now may i ask, who can take this kinda shit?!?!
One may be delighted to find himself/herself at the end of the cycle, thinking this is the end.
BUT! BUT! BUT!
Dreams are dashed when they realise they are actually back to square one.
This is when a closure is needed, to put a stop to cycles.

Okay i think i require a closure.
No, im quite sure i need one badly.

Period's coming. Think i am pms-ing.
Yet another entry which can only be fully understood by me me me.

ps: im going OAL to settle university stuffs tomorrow. cant wait to get it over and done with. urgh! troublesome shit.

2006-06-24T09:56:00.000-07:00

Hello, i have decided to straighten my hair. After a tough mental battle, im gonna replace my curls with straight hair. Not rebonding but its something call "soft straightening". Apparently it looks more natural (we'll see about that), not like rebonded hair which is freaking straight. So byebye curls, i really love them. But they are seriously too high maintenance. Having to wake up early to wash my hair, put leave in conditioner and some curling cream before i head to school is just too tedious. :( No one told me curls would die out, just like no one told me rebonding is bad for the hair! What the hell, after this soft straightening, i dont think i wanna do anything to my hair anymore. My poor hair has been through so much it might just go bonkers one day. Next tuesday, 2pm at a salon in Bugis call "Chapter 2".

On an entirely different topic, i went out with Victor Ulynn and Chester for dinner today. It was at Soup Restaurant, inside some hotel near Wheelock. Damn good by the way. The samsui chicken and the soup were fantastic. Highly recommend everyone to eat at that place. Anyway we got into talking and i realised how much i miss the hectic study life. Where there was a motivation in my life. A direction. Now im like a senseless zombie shopping around Orchard almost everyday. Aiyo, im so hard to please. Too busy complain, nothing to do also complain. What a typical human being. *rolls eye*

This entry is total crap, as usual. Thank you for reading to this very line. I just needed to "talk". Im bored!

2006-06-22T07:21:00.000-07:00

" 你是那种宁愿自己生闷气也不轻易说出感受的人, 通常会紧张心灵, 切又渴望别人能主动了解自己, 为人有点现实且有点固执, 一旦心意一决, 不管什么人也说不动. "

- 心理测验

Let's play Hide and Seek.

This round, im the seeker.

2006-06-20T09:05:00.000-07:00

Me is stress. Dont get me wrong, its good stress.
My whole week is booked and im seriously getting insufficient rest.
Im tired of waking up at 10 and sleeping at 3am.
Im the pig who needs 12 hours of sleep!!
My eye bags are so big, i look like a small fat panda.
This is B-A-D.
But somehow im lovin' it.
I know now you must be thinking im a crazy bitch. Haha!
But hey, its a once in a 8 months kinda thing.
Imagine life back in melbourne, i will be awake at 3am doing essays instead of chatting on MSN.
I wont be sleeping enough because i need to camp in Ballieu for some idiotic research.
-screams and pulls my hair-

As i was saying, i need to rest more.
I know holidays is all about having fun but it also means taking a rest isnt it?
People, i need to rest more, much more.
Besides, my grandma is gonna have a small operation.
Which means i wanna be home to help take care of her.
Me is sad because i love my grandma alot.
:(

On a lighter note, me is mambo-ing tomorrow night!
The long awaited zouk trip has finally arrived.

Oh yes, and "The Omen" isnt as scary as people say. In fact it is sooo not scary. Pui. Tai said that the older version is much better, so rent the old DVD guys! Gonna watch "Fast and Furious" with Andy tomorrow. Hope it will be a better one! (:

2006-06-19T10:38:00.000-07:00

19th June - MY LEGAL 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!

*claps hand*

Many thanks to these people who made it so special:

From the very first person who wished me happy birthday, Joel.B! Calling up and singing me a birthday song was ultimate brother!

To the people who smsed me birthday greetings:

Hwahwa, Ah Mua, Gerry, Xian, Mark, Celest, Qiu, Lun, Lai Lai, Deb, Huang YunXuan, Seetho, Andy Soh and Christopher.

Next up, the 401 guys who organized the chalet:

Seetho Xiao Lei - sorry for not staying over. chalet was w-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l!

Tan Teh Han - thanks for being my slave for the day :)

Nicholas aka Ah Bu - the food was yummy, chef!

Wai Kiat / ZhiHao / Jun Hao - thanks for withstanding the heat and BBQing for the girls!

The 401 girls: (joycelyn, deb, jacq, enchen, weifang, lailai)

Thanks for being there babes. Catching up was so much fun! We should do it more often. Hee. And the cake was both delicious and pweeeety! :)

Melb pals: Ulynn, Sheena, Gerry, Victor and Henry.

Firstly, thank you my sluts for the present and the cake! absolutely loved it!

It was fun catching up with all of you... it feels like being in melb all over again!

Last but not least...

My bestest friends in the world: Twang MeiShan & Ng HwaHiang!

Big big thanks goes out to you two for everything, and i dont just mean today. From the day we knew each other to, well today. Haha. You 2 have been there for me through thick and thin, hearing me whine, bitch and cry. Love you two to bits and pieces!

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Okay this whole entry seems like a huge message board but whatever, it is my birthday! Haha. Sorry people, cant photo blog till i get my camera back from Seetho. The clever girl who just turned 18 left her camera in the chalet. Oh-so-smart! Urgh.

Anyways, im off to get my eyes checked tomorrow. Its been giving me headaches these days. *rolls eyes* Then im gonna watch "The Omen" with tai tomorrow evening! Yayyyy... I love being busy. Oh well, i better enjoy all i can before i go back to -puke- Melbourne.

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!

*big bear hugg*

2006-06-18T07:08:00.000-07:00

My dearest family celebrated my 18th birthday tonight! My Pweeety Birthday Cake!

Me and my family~
Me and Celest (who happens to be 6 days older!)

YAYYY! As of tomorrow, me turns 18! :) :) :)

oh wow, suddenly im overwhelmed with emotions.

but lemme nurse my stubborn headache first. PUI.

2006-06-16T11:18:00.000-07:00

This is why i hate studying. I almost died trying to clean my room.

After that, it was crazy shopping with Sheena:
Crystal Jade

1 ring
3 pairs of ear studs
1 necklace
1 lip gloss
2 pairs of jeans
French manicure
Eyebrow trimming
4 pairs of shorts (updated due to shee's reminder)

and more to come... :)

"Where are U now? I miss U so much. I am not very happy today."
Seeing this kills me. tell me you're fine.

2006-06-14T19:52:00.000-07:00

English - 88%
(this comprise of literature and drama)

Environmental Development - 88%

Media Communications - 84%

Psychology - 83%

History of Ideas - 82%

English for Academic Purpose - 72%

Best 4 average - 86%
(Melbourne University Arts Faculty entry requirement is 83%)

There you go, 8 months of sweat and blood.
So this is what i slogged for.
Those countless nights of essay writing,
Camping at Ballieu Library for 2 weeks,
Eating chocolate non stop to keep myself awake and resulted in gaining 3kg!
It all seems like yesterday.
I truly do not wish to go through the same shit over and over again.
But yet i've grown to love this sense of satisfaction. :)

Praise the Lord.
for the times when i was weak he gave me strength.
for the times when i was down and he lifted me up.
for the times when i turn my back on him but he did not gave me up.
for the times when no prayer was said yet blessings were given.
As i give thanks to my saviour, my lord.

Melbourne Uni, here i come!

7.20am

2006-06-14T11:04:00.000-07:00

Me is back from China trip!

Pictures Pictures Pictures!!

Me and my two sisters had nothing better to do at Changi Airport.

Note the fatty arms and tummy!

Sight seeing in Dalian, China.

Cherry and strawberry picking!

Not forgetting to visit my buddies that helped me through my military-like school life.

Thanks for the presents and the karaoke session! I miss you all! :)

Back to more sight seeing......

Night view of Shanghai city.

(below) All about the Ho Ho Ho! Presenting the 3 sisters!

Lastly, the jump craze we had in Shanghai. Note the expression on my sister's face!

The trip was fantastic, although i did sulk quite abit for revisiting those places of interest. Heh heh. So anyway, this trip was very fruitful. Here's what i bought: countless DVDs/ 2 wallets /10 bags(!!)/ books/ notebooks/ posters/ CDs/ 2 belts 1 word: S-H-I-O-K!! Muahahahahaha! And its been quite awhile since the last family trip. Life's been pretty busy for all i guess. Oh well, timr for me to enjoy SG life before 14th July! Oh boy i dont even wanna think about it. Boo :(

a big big shoutout to CELESTINE WONG CHU WEN my dearest bestest cousin roommate ever on earth:

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! Have a helluva good time clubbing and watching M-18 movies! Love you much much! :) Sorry i am a day late. Heeee.

Countdown to Trinity Results: 2 more hours. 83%, Melbourne Uni. I can wait no more. I want my results, NOW!

2006-06-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

Along comes my knight in shining armour.

He killed me.

Now even my soul is dead.

Unbreak my heart.

I said, unbreak my heart.

2006-06-04T03:31:00.000-07:00

YUNSHAN LOVES WINNIE THE POOH

oh it feels so good to be back, back to my Pooh Bear World.

:( wont get to see all of my lil' darlings once i go back melbourne!

i love my room many many!
with the aircon and a bathroom all to myself.

not forgetting the huge wardrobe full of crap.

and my study table which i havent touched for 8 months.

gosh it feels so good to be home.

to be surrounded by Pooh Bear once again!

4th june - Lunch with Zitai at East Coast.

Jap Food, Mango Shaved Ice, Hougang-ing.

The best part was he drove me all around!

Thanks Tai (:

IMMA HAPPY HAPPY GIRL!

ps: all pictures taken with my new pentax camera, my 18th birthday present from my parents!

2006-06-02T23:07:00.000-07:00

1st June (after i touched down) @ Newton Foodcourt.

Presenting to you, my never-grow-old brudder, Joel.B

Thanks for everything, brother! Supper cum dinner was S-H-I-O-K! (: